You know, I have other kids too.

My life revolves so much around Georgia and my other kids have been through so much. Now that I have a nurse they are getting the attention they need again. Chloe has become this wonderful kid. Great listener, helpful. She folded three loads of laundry today & put it all away. She's always been so old for her little body, since the day she was born. She feeds the animals everyday. When she's feeling sad or mad about our situation she sits and tells me and I let her. I tell her it's okay to feel that way, I remind her of our blessings & how much Heavenly Father loves us & I promise to buy her a nice car when she turns 16. And if we can afford it I will. She deserves so much, she's helped me more than anyone. I hope she doesn't resent me when she's older for how much she's had to help.

Sawyers a whole different story. He acts out, can't sleep, play, or anything if its not right next to me. I let him sleep with me because if he doesn't he's screaming. He's afraid of me leaving. I took him to the doctor today and they think he needs adenoids & tonsils taken out. The doctor says the surgery isn't scary, blah, blah, blah. I wanted to say, do you think adenoids & tonsils scare me?!?  Haha!  But it does scare me & I know I won't be able to stay with him at hospital after because I can't leave Georgia and that kills me. They want them out because he has suspected childhood sleep apnea. He has never slept we'll, has dark circles under his eyes. Dr said a lot of his behavioral problems may get better when he can sleep at night. One thing about sawyer is he loves so much. He has the biggest heart. Chloe was playing with the remote and a bad show came on. He was so worried, Mom the Holy Ghost is going to leave & we won't be protected. He has a simple faith, like when I got sick and as soon as he noticed he knelt down to pray I'd feel better. Lets hope we can get him some better sleep and the attention he needs to feel safe & happy again.

Cash was super clingy, freaked out everytime I got close to the door, but he's gotten back to normal as quickly as a two year old does. He's my easy guy, potty trained himself, cleans up his lego messes first time I ask him to.   Just a good kid. Happy & sweet.

My friend from our old ward came by the other day and mentioned what patient, kind  mom I was. I was so embarrassed because that mom left the building a long time ago!  I have been horrible to my kids since Georgia came home. Ive had no discipline, and yell a ton. They've been fed & cleaned and that's about it. Having this nurse has been amazing. I've jumped on the tramp with cash & sawyer, done homework with Chloe, taught cash his shapes, sawyer likes learning about space. Hopefully, I can begin to live up to my rep of being a good mom again now that I'm not constantly holding a choking, throwing up baby.

Sweet Georgia is growing, we're up to size three diapers, woooohooo!   The pt hopes she'll crawl this month!  Keep praying for us we need it!

Busy busy busy

I've gotten bad about updating, I feel busy. Busier than I've ever felt in my life. I get up to feed Georgia at six and get done with her last feeding at midnight. I don't find a time to sleep during those hours and I've never loved bedtime more.

The exciting updates are;

The neuro was impressed/shocked by her improvement and no longer wants to do the spinal tap. He thinks she'll keep growing & recovering. Miracles come in many packages & I think our miracle had a lot to do with dr Higgins the DO who has been doing cranial manipulation.  The neuro & her ped said when we saw her at first she had no grip and very low neck control. Crazy!!!

We got a nurse. She comes from 10-4 Monday-Friday. Amazing help, but feel guilty dumping Georgia off. Georgia hates it & cries for me, but I get time to clean & play with my other kids.

The funniest thing, we had therapy today, which we are now getting weekly. The gal brought out every toy in her arsenal trying to get Georgia to roll because she says she can do it she just won't. Georgia looses her mind when the therapist even looks at her. Hates therapy. Well, today we are at her peds office he sets his pen down and she rolls right over grabs the pen?!?!?  Georgia, we knew you could do it and after all the fun toys we try to show you, you roll for a pen!

She will get on her hands & knees & rock. Hopefully will crawl soon. We have to painstakingly show her she can move. The therapist says she's very uncoordinated, especially when trying to move hands & feet or switch from left side to right. Scares me, hopefully she can learn to coordinAte on her own.

We feel blessed!