My life revolves so much around Georgia and my other kids have been through so much. Now that I have a nurse they are getting the attention they need again. Chloe has become this wonderful kid. Great listener, helpful. She folded three loads of laundry today & put it all away. She's always been so old for her little body, since the day she was born. She feeds the animals everyday. When she's feeling sad or mad about our situation she sits and tells me and I let her. I tell her it's okay to feel that way, I remind her of our blessings & how much Heavenly Father loves us & I promise to buy her a nice car when she turns 16. And if we can afford it I will. She deserves so much, she's helped me more than anyone. I hope she doesn't resent me when she's older for how much she's had to help.
Sawyers a whole different story. He acts out, can't sleep, play, or anything if its not right next to me. I let him sleep with me because if he doesn't he's screaming. He's afraid of me leaving. I took him to the doctor today and they think he needs adenoids & tonsils taken out. The doctor says the surgery isn't scary, blah, blah, blah. I wanted to say, do you think adenoids & tonsils scare me?!? Haha! But it does scare me & I know I won't be able to stay with him at hospital after because I can't leave Georgia and that kills me. They want them out because he has suspected childhood sleep apnea. He has never slept we'll, has dark circles under his eyes. Dr said a lot of his behavioral problems may get better when he can sleep at night. One thing about sawyer is he loves so much. He has the biggest heart. Chloe was playing with the remote and a bad show came on. He was so worried, Mom the Holy Ghost is going to leave & we won't be protected. He has a simple faith, like when I got sick and as soon as he noticed he knelt down to pray I'd feel better. Lets hope we can get him some better sleep and the attention he needs to feel safe & happy again.
Cash was super clingy, freaked out everytime I got close to the door, but he's gotten back to normal as quickly as a two year old does. He's my easy guy, potty trained himself, cleans up his lego messes first time I ask him to. Just a good kid. Happy & sweet.
My friend from our old ward came by the other day and mentioned what patient, kind mom I was. I was so embarrassed because that mom left the building a long time ago! I have been horrible to my kids since Georgia came home. Ive had no discipline, and yell a ton. They've been fed & cleaned and that's about it. Having this nurse has been amazing. I've jumped on the tramp with cash & sawyer, done homework with Chloe, taught cash his shapes, sawyer likes learning about space. Hopefully, I can begin to live up to my rep of being a good mom again now that I'm not constantly holding a choking, throwing up baby.
Sweet Georgia is growing, we're up to size three diapers, woooohooo! The pt hopes she'll crawl this month! Keep praying for us we need it!
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