Bleh,,,

Everyone has a bad day here or there, I had one today and it's because of mommy guilt. I was already a huge mommy guilt kind of person, but my situation right now has taken it to a whole new level!  Not to mention Chloe has learned to work the mom guilt to her advantage.

Anyway, Georgia's been having awesome days, but today was just not one of them. She spit up this morning, but one little spit up will ruin that poor babies day.  What doesn't come out she chokes on and it starts coming out of her nose. Even suctioning it doesn't help, because she just gags and she throws up more.  So shes just cruddy until she works through it.  Also, her feeding tube is clogged and I'm having to flush it with coke. My gosh, of all things, right?!?!

So I had planned a little playdate for sawyer because he comes home from school bored everyday and mopes around all afternoon. He's so excited, but I have to cancel. Second playdate I've canceled in two weeks. It stinks. He is really acting out right now and my sweet boy is having lots of temper issues. Mom guilt super bad right now!!!

Then Blake had a late appointment so he couldn't take Chloe to soccer practice. I'm about to say, sorry no practice this week when she throws a major mom guilt trip on me. So I pack up the three kids, the baby, and all the feeding supplies. Half way through the practice Georgia's halfway through the feed and I'm feeling like super mom. I got to socialize and see the outside of my house!  So were driving home and Chloe yells from the backseat, " Mom!  Georgia's throwing up, oh gosh it's coming out of her nose!". I only panicked for a spilt second, then I stopped and listened for breathing. Luckily it was so loud I could hear it.  We were a half a mile from home, she was fine. Just a bummer my fears of an outing by myself came true and I longed for normal.  I longed for that crazy routine of drop offs pick ups and practice and activities and playdates.

The real trick now, is when I get there again I can't forget to be thankful!!!!