Coming to terms...

I got a little down after Georgia failed her swallow study and this week I've had to spend a lot of time regrouping my thoughts. Blake and I went to the Temple last weekend, we ended up receiving more revelation about our older three kids than Georgia. We both were impressed that we need to care for Georgia the best we can, but we still need to stay focused on the other children. There are so many things I've let slide; brushing teeth, reading time, and other important things because I am consumed with Georgia's care. So this week I made that effort to get back to our routines. The feeding therapist who came was great, she suggested we do as many normal things as possible. So we've taken the kids out to eat, to the pumpkin patch & hay maze and other fun stuff; all with Georgia in tow. Just trying to get everyone adjusted to our new normal.

I've started feeding Georgia with a syringe when we go out, so much easier than lugging a pump and less conspicuous. In fact, that's been a huge factor in accepting this and moving forward. It's actually a very easy way to feed a baby. Way better than breast or bottle feeding. Seriously inject their food in the tummy & go. I knew today I had finally stopped mourning not being able to nurse her and feed her this foriegn way when I heard two other moms talking about nursing without feeling sad.  It's our new normal, and I feel like Blake & I are adjusting really well to it. Now we need to help our little family to feel normal & loved again. I think that's the biggest trial we're facing right now.

Part of this process is finally picking up Chloe from school.  She was developing some huge anxiety about getting picked up or rather, not being picked up.  During parent teacher conference, her teacher talked about anxiety and confidence issues. For those of you who know chloe, these are not problems we ever thought she would have!  So I knew she needed Mom more in homework & picking up from school.  I still don't trust Georgia in the car seat in long carpool lines since she still gets car sick, so I decided to walk. I think it is good for us all to get a walk everyday because we were cooped up so long.  I have a double stroller, but my four year old boy is often distracted and gets tired easy. I felt like making him walk or ride a bike would be torture. So I decided to get a triple stroller. Oh wow, it's as funny as you think and Blake makes fun of me constantly, but today he learned the value. After dragging our boys around the soccer field this morning while they're stopping to pick flowers & begging to be held, while we're already carrying the car seat, blanket, chairs, water bottles, snacks, etc....I said this is why we need that huge stroller. So the next game we pushed that huge stroller all around those soccer fields and it was kinda hard and kinda embarrassing, but by the end of the game I didn't care. So much easier. It has a seat for Cash, a place for Georgia's car seat and a place for sawyer to sit/stand in the back by me. The Big Caboose. http://www.diapers.com/p/joovy-big-caboose-stand-on-triple-stroller-appletree-45979?site=CA&utm_source=cse&utm_medium=cpc_D&utm_term=JY-021&utm_campaign=Google&CAWELAID=1338716444&utm_content=pla&cagpspn=pla&ci_kw=%7Bkeyword%7D